psych ward – Never had a white picket fence

Good friends stab you in the front…

So much was unearthed that night. So many questions answered, but so many questions still left unanswered. Could I believe everything I was told? I had no reason not to. The boyfriend seemed sincere enough. He seemed genuinely heartbroken and confused, as I was. He was full of all the information as to why my…

No time like the first time

While I was in the psych ward, I started spotting. Not a lot, but enough that I noticed. At first I thought maybe I had another kidney stone. I had no pain, just this annoyance of bleeding. I’ve had an IUD since my child was born a million years ago (19 at this point) obviously…

I’m crazy for trying and crazy for crying

The biggest road block to going “home” was not having one to go to. I was going “home” to mom’s condo. My life was still imploded. My life IS still imploded. Not one thing that has happened have I asked for, or wanted. My husband made all the decisions for me and wanted them implemented.…

I’m crazy

10 days in a psych ward. When I finally left there, I’m not sure I felt any better than when I went in. At some point, I think it became apparent to everyone involved in my care that time was maybe going to help. My life had shattered into a million little pieces that couldn’t…

So lonely

I didn’t want to get admitted to that tertiary care hospital, but I sure didn’t want to risk a whole weekend of being stuck in the emergency room. They listened to my concerns about why I didn’t want to be admitted there, that my smaller hospital was part of the same healthcare system and I…

Crazy for feeling

You know when you have those lightbulb moments? I had one last November that was not a shining one. I had officially hit rock bottom in my life. I hope I never go lower than I did then. My friend had to bring me to the emergency room because I went on a hunger strike…