can’t sleep – Never had a white picket fence

Therapy

My husband had told me he would not do couples therapy with me while we were “trying”. After I was in the hospital I told him I needed to do therapy together. There were too many things left unsaid. My mind was too jumbled. I was too lost, hurt and confused without him. He agreed…

Living without you

Living around the corner from my husband wasn’t ever going to work. What I’ve grown to learn in my time away from him, is he still wanted to control me in certain ways and have the upper hand. I think he wanted me at my mother’s condo so he knew when I was and wasn’t…

Good friends stab you in the front…

So much was unearthed that night. So many questions answered, but so many questions still left unanswered. Could I believe everything I was told? I had no reason not to. The boyfriend seemed sincere enough. He seemed genuinely heartbroken and confused, as I was. He was full of all the information as to why my…

I’m crazy for trying and crazy for crying

The biggest road block to going “home” was not having one to go to. I was going “home” to mom’s condo. My life was still imploded. My life IS still imploded. Not one thing that has happened have I asked for, or wanted. My husband made all the decisions for me and wanted them implemented.…

So lonely

I didn’t want to get admitted to that tertiary care hospital, but I sure didn’t want to risk a whole weekend of being stuck in the emergency room. They listened to my concerns about why I didn’t want to be admitted there, that my smaller hospital was part of the same healthcare system and I…