blended family – Never had a white picket fence

Ring… Ring Ring… Ring Ring Ring…

I am not a big wearer of jewelry. What I wear is simple and has meaning. When I was younger, I changed out my earring often for fun, dangly earrings a lot. I actually have 5 holes collectively in my ears. I pierced 3 of the holes myself as a tortured teen with a stitching…

Good friends stab you in the front…

So much was unearthed that night. So many questions answered, but so many questions still left unanswered. Could I believe everything I was told? I had no reason not to. The boyfriend seemed sincere enough. He seemed genuinely heartbroken and confused, as I was. He was full of all the information as to why my…

Odd man out

By: Okate April 28, 2021April 28, 2021

Uncategorizedall the little things, blended family, broken, broken heart, broken home, broken soul, broken women, husband, what i did wrong, where did he go, where do I go from hereLeave a Comment

So, as it turned out everyone knew about each other but me. I couldn’t quite wrap my head around it. Their relationship was described to me by the boyfriend as “an open relationship but she was the only one living it,”. Him and I spent an oddly intimate Christmas Eve together on the phone and…

I’m crazy for trying and crazy for crying

The biggest road block to going “home” was not having one to go to. I was going “home” to mom’s condo. My life was still imploded. My life IS still imploded. Not one thing that has happened have I asked for, or wanted. My husband made all the decisions for me and wanted them implemented.…

Something new, something old, something borrowed and something blue

We didn’t want a big gala for our wedding. At least I didn’t. If I had my way, we would have just gone down to the courthouse and gotten married, just him and him. He told me I could do whatever I wanted. Money was no limit. You may recall I had said before I…

First heartbreak

As a mother, you think that your child is always going to love you unconditionally. You know in the back of your mind, that this isn’t really true. I knew from the moment mine was born with those big cerulean, to turn brown eyes, I was hooked. It was an addictive love that I was…